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Jumat, 22 Februari 2013

Who I Am Right Now...

Do you ever have those moments where you sit and daydream about your perfect day or how you would look if the stars were aligned, and even what you would wear? Oh! where you would go, who you would talk to, and who you would be? Okay, so I'm not totally daydreaming, but I am having one of those moments where I really like me! I mean I always "like me"; but right now I'm really liking me! Surely some of you out there have got to know what I'm talking about! Anyhoo, just come along for the ride! It will be entertaining if nothing else!

I'm pretty classic in the way I dress. I grew up with very strong influences; my mom and my grandmother. Both of these women could make the most inexpensive, simplistic piece look incredible! I loved watching them get dressed. It was like watching an artist paint! I'm 5'10" with a slender frame, although I must admit my body is finally beginning to show it's age by filling out in some areas that I am having a bit of a challenging time accepting! It's okay though, it really is! I'm actually starting to like it (really)! I don't know if I've ever felt more confident. But again, this may have more to do with age and maturity than how I look. I do however, love the look with the full skirt, denim shirt, statement belt, and strappy sandal! This would totally be one of my uniforms of choice for day to day dressing. Skirts and dresses are just so much more comfortable to me and I like looking like a woman!

Ah the classic white shirt with a bevy of varying length necklaces, I adore. I think everyone, man or woman, looks so pulled together in a white, nicely pressed button down shirt. It can take you from casual to dressy, from day to night, from carpool mom to totally sexy! The white button down is a staple in my closet and it should be in yours. I have quite a few of them in different sleeve lengths, with different details, and always perfectly white! The same goes for the classic white T-shirt and tank top. You MUST have these in your wardrobe! I'm loving the red lip! Not typically something you will see me in, but as of late, I have been having my moments!

Confession: A few months after giving birth to my first child, I noticed I was losing quite a bit of weight, had the jitters so badly my handwritting was illegible, and was sweating like a farm animal (my skin never looked better, though)! I was modeling at the time and had just done a testing to update my book, when my booker inquired about my health and then politely told me that they would not be sending me out on anymore castings or jobs until I went to the doctor. They had some concerns and I'm glad they did. To make a long story short, I was diagnosed with Graves disease (an autoimmune thyroid disease). I had a super over-active thyroid that medication could not treat (we did try). I underwent a nuclear medicine treatment that shrunk my thyroid to the size of a pea. It now has very little function and I'm on Synthroid (a drug for those with an underactive thyroid).

Anyhoo, it wasn't until years later when I was pregnant with my daughter that the tell tell signs of Graves disease revealed themselves...bulging eyes. This wasn't typical because usually it's the bulging eyes that gives you away with Graves. Not me, but then I've never been typical! It's been about eight years since this has happened and I am just now really accepting it and being okay with it. It was very challenging. I mean, can you imagine waking up, looking in the mirror, and not seeing the person that greeted you everyday. I wouldn't go anywhere and I didn't want to be seen. Pete and my friends would say "You still look beautiful". They didn't get that it wasn't that I was concerned about not being beautiful; I was concerned about not being ME! Now I play up my eyes with eyeliner and mascara and typically do a nude lip. I love this look on me! I figure, hey I can't disguise these huge eyes, I may as well play them up and make them AMAZING!

It's so odd that I never really cared very much for red nails, as I for some reason, saw this as an "older" woman's thing! I guess now I'm that older woman, because I love them! I can't think of a classier accessory than lovely red manicured nails (not talons, nails)! I don't have the delicate sized hands the lovely woman in the picture has though! My hands are pretty big with long fingers. I did say I was 5'10"! No worries, they are very nice looking (when I've had a manicure)!

This Celine handbag is so me right now because it's a less serious take on the clutch. It's very casual chic. You can look at the leather and the details and tell that it is a quality bag, but one that is very much a handbag that you can just grab and go and look fabulous while you're going! I like wearing those pieces that make you look fabulous, but also like you spent very little time fussing about it. I have a couple of clutches that I love to grab up and wear casually. One is a stylish oversized number I picked up from Target last summer and the other is a metallic pewter steal by Steve Madden. Both of which look great with everything! I truly believe it is the confidence you wear, more so than the clothes and accessories. Don't get me wrong, the clothes and accessories definitely go a long way in helping!

I have become much more bold in my wardrobe color choices. Back in the day, you would have not ever caught me in something this bold, vibrant, and eye catching! That's one thing about being in your forties (forty-three to be exact), you know who you are, you know what you want, you know how to get it, and you know who to get it from! I've never been more in love with who I am right now! I think those closest to me can see the difference. I don't know, it's as if I woke up and had an epiphany! I am good enough just the way I am! Moving on... I use to stay away from bright colors and things that would make me stand out in a crowd (I never stopped wearing heels, though). I've embraced that I am an incredible woman, with a radiant smile that is powerful beyond even what I know! I'm a loving wife to Pete, the best mom ever to Noah and Gillian, and one of the most wonderful people you will ever meet! So why in the world would I do anything to diminish that! Why would you?

I have fallen in love with flowers. I love them. Can't get enough of them. I don't keep them in my home the way that I would like. In fact, when I'm able, I'm going to have a florist on call that will come regularly to change my floral arrangements in my home! They make me happy. These are the things that I want to spend my time, money, and energy on. The things that make me happy (and can bring a little beauty and joy to those who don't even realize it)! I love it when my children make an observation based on something that I've unknowingly exposed them to that they have developed a true appreciation for! For instance, when Gillian handwrites invitations on blank index cards instead of notebook paper because she likes the weight better, and when Noah looks up at the sky and comments that it's a beautiful day. It's the simple things my friend, the simple things!